Different

Why me
That you have to choose
Even though they call me different
That they look at me from far
None cared to ask me
Could it be that I managed to smile all these years
Is it because you were there?
It still bothers me
These days, these times when I sit alone
They chose to shade their eyes from me
Since I met you I vowed
If I'm to be reborn
I want to be reborn different again
Then find where you are
No matter how many times
With these eyes that they call witch's pair
Why did you choose me?
My nights became lonely since I met you
You taught me what it means to despair
I didn't know what love was
My pains were temporary
I never cried at night for what they said
But I knew
I was and always will be different
One of them yet not
Trapped on this small planet
Ironic
How my difference took me across universe
To venture outside
I saw people more unique than me
It wasn't me who found you
God sent you in a surprise package
To this boring place which you say is better than yours
But life is always like that, isn't it?
Grass is always greener on the other side
You are on the far side
Shining in a way so gently
You are also different, but they love you
I can't understand why
Why is it I crossed that border of difference
We are too far away
Still I couldn't help taking you away from them
Your response
It made things worse
Perhaps if you didn't say you love me
Perhaps life would've been different from now
And I won't have to sleep alone
Or cry alone
If you didn't catch my extended hand
Would I be happier than now?
Aren't you regretting
Taking me in?
I won't regret what I did
When I chose to make you mine regardless of your feelings
But if you're not happy with me
I'm ready to let you go
Your happiness is what I wish
But with all my heart, I don't want to let you go
If you are gone
If someone else comes to take your place
I want to be reborn
This time into the person you'd really be happy with
Forgive me for being different
I'm sorry I'm not as nice as they are
Hikaru
Hotaru
Keikoku
Whichever you are
Life is full of wonder
Like when the traveler settled down with the healer
I've never doubted your love
Nor do I doubt your heart
I just wanted to hear your voice more often
Even at those times when I get persistent
What I really wanted was to listen to you
To have you nearby a little bit longer
To prolong your stay some more
I wanted to listen to those assuring words over and over
And smile at you when you're not looking
To understand what your life is like
I'll always believe in you
You showed me who God is
You told me that God loves me
What more could you do for me than that?
They still stare at us
Wherever I go
Is it okay for you to walk with the so-called silvered curse?
It would've been better if you just let go of my hand
Nah, it's better this way
They don't understand
I don't need them to understand
I didn't ask to be born different
But next time, if there is
I will

Invisible Writer

You're always knocking at my heart

Then draw tears when my eyes are still wide

You turn things upside down as you like

And you're still my one love

You tell me my dad loves me

About his inability to show it

You show me my mom needs me

All the way behind that curtain of temper

I ask myself why I should be kind to people

Yet I worry if you'd ever stop being kind to me

I think I have a heart of stone

But you keep it throbbing

Over?

Has my time come?

But I open my eyes

As another morning greets me

This journey is still far

There are still puzzles to unscramble

Whenever I stumble and fall

I get back up

Knowing it was you who supported

I hate it when I doubt myself

But then you will sing me a story

And tell me to believe

I do not know who I am

Because everything about me belongs to you

You, my God