Love Hurts

I have something to say

A longing to fulfil

What have I done

To forget this love

What my hands have done to upset you

I'll repay with my everything

So many days passed

Ever since autumn leaves left their mark

A face I used to love

To long for so long

A person I wanted to hug

That I always loved

Just silently with the breeze

Wrapping my arms around hes shoulders

I've forgotten

What it felt like to love

To miss someone so much

To hate memories

Never looking back

Cause knowing this will happen

This very moment

When I start missing those days

The days where I chased after you

The day we swore to love each other

And those following moments

When there was nothing I loved more

Than to see you every single day

Know my love, that I still hate looking back

Looking back on those days

Those days when nothing could hold me back

When everything I wanted was you

But look at me now

Nothing more than a figure

Lost and stumbling

Falling over and over

The light seems so far

And you are far too

When I walked away on my own

What is it that I seek

Satisfaction from lust and greed?

Denying, but God knows

How much I need help

I'm the weak traveler

Who's lost everything

After such a long time

These tears fall again

As I realize

That I've fallen deep down the trench

You are not an illusion

Not a toy I can play with

Can I just sit down

And stare at you in the eyes

Recalling those lovely green gems

Ahh let me forget those days

The days I loved you

Let me leave these days

The days I turn my back on you

I'll keep on walking

Though the road's tough

I'll find the answer

The day will come

When I'll love you again

The way it should have been

Then I'll look at you again

And probably smile without tears down my cheeks

Probably you don't know

But I'm the one who left you

The one who walked out on you

But you kept on smiling

Believing in me

And I knew that trust

While I keep on playing around

Still you wait for me

For every single second of my return

Never regretting choosing me

As if nothing is wrong

But it's wrong

Why can't I just hold you?

And hold on strong

Why do I keep going away

When I know I'm not that strong?

And everytime I come back

You're there at the door

Don't go away

Don't show me those regretful tears

I wish you'll never know

The meaning of tsurai omoi

When you know what I am

And what I've been

I still hate memories

Bringing back nothing but pain

God this hurts

Love hurts

Even when I'm the one who's hiding it

***

Love letter from The Traveler to The Healer.

Expedition Into The Sea

Se came in a strange way

And se's leaving in a strange way

A very aged companion

From the One that goes beyond time

The clock ticks by

Tick, tock, tick, tock...

Echoes on the wall

Se's leaving, oh God, se's leaving

I won't ask why you take hem away

But I beg

Take me with you

Dimensions, time

Space, mass

Matters that matter but not

God you're interesting

What are you keeping behind that veil

So beautiful, so kind

Made words enough to express

Oh the One that toys with my heart

Fascinate me with your stories

Dear angel on my right

There's something you're hiding from us

Is it interesting? Are they what they seem?

One day we'll share our tales

Sitting on the sky

You already know my share

It's time to tell me yours

Dear angel on my left,

Thank you for everything

At sunrise they took me

In front of the crowd

Onto the platform

So I stood

And I looked at the sky

And the infinity beyond

Warm sea breeze on the cliff

Ah, I thought

What serenity...

I'm so thrilled

What does death feel like

And the life after that

I won't turn back

I can't turn back

So I'll just look forward

Anticipating a new start

My heart beats so fast

But my excitement was disturbed by a tap on my shoulder

And I was asked

To give my last word

Last word?

That's tough

So many things to conclude in one sentence

Humans' laws are so funny

"Se came in a strange manner,

And se's leaving in a strange manner,

Se's leaving, my brethrens,

Se's leaving..."

Forbidden Time

Now as I look back

As I tear open a veil called time

There's a portrait of me

In a way I recognize no longer

I knew it, people just change

Maybe that's what interesting

I took down the portrait

And wrapped it neatly in memories

What surprise

One I've not had in a long time

Se had a few pieces missing

Now I hold a fragment of the puzzle

Then I put it in place

Just another piece could be so significant

I added another scene to my life

Just that and the stars appeared again

They gazed at me giggling

I couldn't help but grin

Coz I really have no idea

Since when I could hold out a hand

Reaching into what we call earth

Here I found what I needed

I buried memories in laughter

And kept it beside solitude

I locked the door called past

And drew shut the veil called time

悔しくなんかない

夜：怒ってる？

光：全然。なんで僕が？

夜：いや、まあ、君だもんね

夜：あなたは誰

どうしてそんな冷静にいられるの

自分が馬鹿にされてるよ

自分が認められてないよ

光：君は誰

どうしてそんな文句言うの

馬鹿にされてるのは

認められてないのは

人間っていうもの

夜：どうして笑っちゃう？

今笑われたぞ！

光：どうして気に入らないの？

面白いぞ

夜：あなたのそういうとこが好き

光：ありがとう

夜：いつかあなたみたいになりたい

光：なれなくても愛してるよ

夜：でも本当に理解できない

光：僕、変ってるから

夜：本当、あなた。。。

大好きだね

白：成長したな、光

光：ずっと前からだけど。。

白：いや、全然違う

光：そんなに？

白：俺、正直びっくりした

光：君なんかびっくりできるわけ？？

白：でも、お前はやっぱり馬鹿だな

光：君に言われたくねぇな

夜：怒ってないと言ってるのに、号泣じゃない？

光：してないよ

夜：だって、奇妙な笑いしてるもの

光：へえ。。。そんなわけない

夜：悲しかったら、悔しかったら、私に言って

。。。

隠しても無駄だぞ

私には、わかるから、あなたの気持ぐらい

光：笑わせてよ。。。

泣きたくないから、笑わせてよ

だって、僕は旅者だから

夜：。。。

私は、あなたを守りたい

光：よく守ってくれたよ

言えないくらい感謝だ

夜：その強がるあなたのとこが。。嫌なんだ。。

悲しい時は泣いて

悔しい時は怒って

光：悔しい時なんかないさ

自分に嘘をついてても

やがてそれが真実になるから

頑張ってる僕の姿、嫌いかい？

夜：。。辛いんだよ。。。

光：僕は、泣くときもある、笑う時もある

でも悔しいから泣くのって

バカバカしい

ただ、自分の弱さや馬鹿さに負けたとき

肩を、貸してくれ

Eternal Bond

Can I lean against your back now

And trust you to look after mine

Can we sit together under the widespread sky now

Without worrying about what's behind each of us

I am glad I met you

I am glad I have you to call

My companions now and forever

Memories still linger

About friendships that never stay sealed

We were always afraid

Never had anyone to trust

But that all changed

With the power of the One that we share our love

We were able to love each other

"One day you might find me jumping with joy

When you do, remind me of hell

One day you might find me hopelessly down

When you do, remind me of Hes love

One day when you see me weak and helpless

Remind me of heaven and its treasures

If one day I build a barrier between us

Help me tear it down

If there was a time I scarred your heart

Tell me so I could change

When the day comes when I shall sleep my eternal rest

Then shower me with Al-Fatihah and prayers"

I read that a long, long time ago

But I knew how terrible humans can be

Now we have met

Now we have fallen in love

There are you to whom I can say these words

We need not worry anymore

There are people I can trust

Now I can say that

Now I can finally trust

Never have we done this before

Never have we vowed our love to anyone

Thank you my God, for showing us

That we were not alone

Though we are all trying

We trust our backs to each other

And now I walk under the sun

Under the moon, under the stars

Without having to look back

Just walking forward

Towards people waiting for me

I love you my friends

Eternally I love you

White Wind

I have something to share

I have blue skies to watch

To witness

Will you listen to my story

Or will you go as soon as the fun is over

Stay

Look into my eyes

You have to know

A fight that's been going on forever

Is it destiny

Is it a blessing

An image so lustful

Of a memory stained with emptiness

Have you ever looked at the earth

All around you

Did you know if you stop and watch

Everything will talk to you

I asked the persona

Why do you keep coming back?

It is so kind

It is so sweet

But never answers my question

It just play with me

And tell me it's alright

Everything's alright

Nothing's alright

I asked the council

Why didn't you stop it?

They asked me back

Why won't you lend a hand?

A thing I never understand

Is that my heart believes in the truth

But against this one persona

It always shuts its eyes

Ironic

I killed myself

Literally

Are you bored?

Or are you confused?

"What is this, my dear?" says you over there

"What has been bothering you for centuries?

Have you forgotten your destiny?

Do you not own someone a favor?

You used to throw away your life for the truth

Why are you throwing it away for damnation now?

Have you forgotten your destiny?"

My dear, my dear

I never forget my destiny

That is why I'm telling you

What I can't solve by myself

I have no patience, have I?

It is a blessing

To be beautiful

Now I finally understand why they say

Being too beautiful could be a sin

Codename KY

The codename

It's you

Do I have to let go of you now?

And bid farewell till the time comes

But you just won't go away

Once I call your name

There you are again

We both hate saying goodbye

And this is our destiny

If fighting is our destiny

Then fight by my side

I play in your world

You visit my world

God is mysterious

And sometimes humorous

That's the way things are

Live with it

Kneel down

Bow down

In front of the Almighty

Whom we pledge allegiance

When I saw you with your friends

I wished I could be like you

Our worlds are too different

Loyalty here was next to none

Or so I thought

So I kept leaving

I kept going to your side

Then the message was conveyed

That my fight here has never ended

Goodbye is but a few seconds

Are you willing to let me go?

God is miraculous

In the end

We are destined to smile

Because our loyalty

Is only for one

You are my companion

On the path to God